so he left from my house around 11am & it really just broke my heart. never would i have thought that i would have to be the one to say bye to him. i miss him so much already. today is going to be the last time i get to talk to him. tomorrow he’s going to get shipped to Georgia around 6am but his phone is gonna be disconnected. when we hugged eachother for the last time he didnt shed a tear. his cheeks just turned hot & he was quiet. i know this will be something that will be difficult for me but like he said, i’ll have to be strong for him. i know this will make us stronger and all but i just wish i could be by his side physically everyday. i probably wont get to see him till around christmas time :(

yesterday i spent just about the whole day with him. i went with his family to Charlottesville to visit his older brother (my first time). i had a great time and i can tell how much his family really loves him. he was really quiet the whole time and i know him leaving was getting to him. im really happy that his parents really like me. he’s told me how his mom has never liked any of gfs and I’m glad they both want me in his life for a long time. his mom cried alot thanking me for being there for him through everything thats happened. last night i also got to cuddle with him in his bed for the last time. i slept on his chest and when i woke up, i just started crying. we also went to the lake that we go to for special occasions to make a toast. i got so emotional saying what i wanted to say to him :/ in the end i just hope everything goes well and that these 5 years go by fast. i just wanna be in his arms again.

im getting so emotional looking & reading stuff about military couples. i get so teary eyed realizing how fast time is going. before i know it, he’ll be gone and i wont talk to him or even see him for 3 months. its killing me already that i wont be seeing him every time i want to. at least i get to see him this weekend..

so its been a while since i’ve last written on here so here i go;

1. I am SOOO happy that i crossed into my sorority. it had so overwhelmed and stressed but the feeling I had when i crossed was indescribable. i have met so many incredible women and i love my linesisters. HLM! Rrrrrrrrrrraaaahhhhhh!

2. im so happy that this semester is almost over. im so sick of it at this point i just want to finish everythinggg

3. my boyfriend leaves to army in less than a month :/ it gets me so sad everytime i think about it. we’ve fallen so hard for eachother and i just cant imagine how for almost 6 years i wont be seeing him whenever i want. i know its something that’ll benefit him in the future but i wish he could’ve turned to something else. the fact that its the army scares me. yesterday on the phone i couldnt help but cry just thinking about him being gone. he has been everything i’ve wanted and to get that taken away from me….just hurts. but im gonna show him that im gonna stand by his side. he’ll have someone to come back home to. just like he was there for me during my process, i’ll be there for him..